I'm in the preliminary stages of redesigning my website. My friend Bill has lent me one of his old unused webcams, making me feel like I need a more webcam friendly design. I'll be adding a section to display the latest Movie Nite Movies (every Tuesday at my Casa), Ads for my Radio Freedom Broadcast and others, A display for my Weird Eclectic Vinyl, etc...

It should be good once I get it done. until then, you'll just have to look at my old site.

A while back some friends of mine got together (as a couple) and now one of them (lets just call her Jenny) seems not to like me. This situation makes it awkward on the other friend, with whom I'd like to spend time with, but can't seem to go anywhere without her. The absolute idiocy of this situation is that "Jenny" was a really good friend. Matter of fact, just last christmas I recieved a letter from her expressing how she appreciates me as a friend. After all, she's hung out at my apartment for the last 4 years, has met almost all of her boyfriends through me and has even cleaned my toilet on occasion. But now, it seems she has become "closer than ever" with my Ex-girlfriend Melody. And every injustice that was supposedly commited against her is now reigning in blood through the words of "Jenny". Anytime Valorie has ever sat with her, "Jenny" has managed to relay some story about me, Melody, or some other thing that no-one's current relationship would want nor care to hear about. "Jenny" has even gone as far as to tell Valorie, my girlfriend (and Your Girlfriend), that she "No longer likes PDS" to the point of saying that anytime she were to see me again it would "be too soon".

What the Fuck??

Well, on my birthday, Valorie was calling my friends to get them together for the night's activities. When she called to get my friend and "Jenny" out, Jenny answered the phone.

Valorie asked if they'd be making it out, to which "Jenny" replied,"Why Would I?"

Fuckin' Bitch!!

Why would she? Maybe because I've busted my ass to be her friend for the last 4 years. Maybe because I have attended her family functions and have consoled her after every break-up with every boyfriend she's had. Maybe because...

No... Fuck this. I just have a few things left to say about this. Most of it is about friendship.

When you are somebody's "friend", you have arguements. Sure, you can get mad and talk shit about each other, try to punch each others lights out and steal each others girlfriends or wreck their car. But, if you're REALLY friends, all of that will pass in the end. It will always run back to, "Hey, hows it going." and you're friends again.

We all do stupid things, and in most cases (in my opinion, they must be forgiven). But those are the things you do and say. There is also a code of trust and common decency, and a loyalty that comes with being a friend. That also will show to be true in the end. (in most cases) Some people that you've been friends with for years can suddenly prove they never were your friend in the first place. I don't know how to explain this right now, because of my splitting headache... But I think you probably get what I mean.

To sum up my messy rant. In the words of the mortally-challenged Tupac, "I ain't mad at cha." But, I have to say that I am quite confused. Why? What'd I do to you? Jesus, a part of me feels that due to the desperation of her relationship with my other friend, she has assumed the role of my Ex-girlfriend. (who undoubtably talks all sorts of shit about me to this day. (it's evident in the stories told to Valorie) Look, "Jenny"... if you read this know that it's okay. There are support groups out there to help you with your problem. Unfortunately, you've talked so much shit about everyone and thrown so many fits in front of everyone, that you will find very few sympathetic people to console you when everyone (much less your own boyfriend) leaves you flat. Realize, it's one thing to talk shit about the people that are your friends, and it's another to gain a list of enemies by making your opinion publicly known. It's how drive-by's are born. (In no way does this message condone nor predict a drive-by on anyone at anytime or anyplace. Violence is not the answer.) People intentionaly hurt to avenge the hurt placed upon themselves or ones they love. To "share the wealth." I mean... "pain".

My friend Nick is a good example of a friend. We have known eachother for a long time. We can both do and say stupid things. We have both hurt each others feelings/pride in the past. But through it all, we still stay friends. Because the basis for the friendship is a common respect for each other. Admiration is probably the better word. Now, I'm not saying Nick and I will ALWAYS be friends. After all, even the strongest of realationships end. Bringing forth new ones. It's the nature of the game. I'm just re-emphasizing the importance of respect in a relationship. (friend or otherwise)

Oh, well... I'm rambling and I have an interesting night of Movies to watch. Supposedly, "Jenny" will be attending tonight with her boyfriend, whom wants to see me. One of his old girls will be here with her husband along with Big Titty Jenny who is expecting an apology from "Jenny" for the last time she got screamed at by her. (we'll see if it happens, much less her even showing up.)

Peace out, Mah Homies.