I can never seem to keep up with it well enough to excuse it's existance.

came back from NYC, been entertaining guests, working as much as possible, DJing private parties for some good dough, building websites for some good dough, still not enough dough to pay off the police.

Mutha fuck tha police!

really mad at them right now, tell ya later bout it in more detail. all I have to say is that I owe them about $500 for a plethora of offenses of which most I didn't commit. (I said most)

Hoping I can knock out my police debt by Sept. Hoping My Birthday doesn't suck as bad as my life has been as of late.

Not getting along with Valorie at present, she's always upset or grouchy or not feeling good. Sickness and Periods aside I feel less important than her immediate needs. I'm noticing more and more that she doesn't really "like"... ME.

I've been gone most of the weekend at work, with little time to associate with people at the house. When I do have time to talk, she claims I'm hogging the conversation and throws a fit. (I.E. runs to the bedroom and covers herself with the blankets)

If I whistle, She hates it. If I make a joke (any joke, unless it's a preapproved VALORIE topic "kittens") It's Juvenile or Stupid. I'm hogging the hot water (almost as much as the coversation). No phone calls after 11pm or she won't be able to sleep. When I go to work at 8am she gets up and has a good day. When I stay home, she stays in bed till 3pm, wasting half of our day. When I get on the computer it's, "What are you doing?" (I.E. what do you think you're doing) When it's sex time, I'm the intiator, seldom the initiated....

These are a few of my current complaints with the live-in. How's your day been??

My biggest problem is, I love her. I want more than anything to stay with her and for things to get better, but no matter how much I beg and plead, scream and yell, bargain and bribe, I get the shit end of the stick...

Sure, she could have a valid point about not liking some of my television programming or my music or the way I whistle, etc, etc, etc... but I feel that I bend over backwards to give her what she needs and be accepting and appreciative to what she likes and wants. (don't I deserve the same?)

I listen to every story she has three times in a row... And smile. I make sure I provide as much for her to do as possible (even on my super tight limited budget). She stays at my house "rent free" without a word from me about it, even though everyone else seems to have an opinion. (that's another story) Etc, Etc, Etc... (it's getting late and I'm really tired)

I feel like she doesn't take my needs into consideration alongside her own. (as much as I want to treat her like a Princess, I really don't like it when she acts like one.) I understand that she's upset at the direction of her life right now, but she can't take that out on the people that care about her... It sucks...

All I'm saying is...

I am not OBLIGATED to do anything for you... I enjoy doing so because I love you, however I can only go so long being treated like dump before I feel like giving up.